I got a little hope in my pocket
I want to share of it with you
Just be careful that you don't drop it
Dont worry if you do
Cause I've got broken down inside me
And I might just need some help
But I will get by
Hey, hey
And I've got demons in my history
Got bone beneath my skin
I've been taken by a mystery
Yes I've been taken in
And sometimes voices down inside me
Try to fight me for myself
I will get by
What have I got to live for
If there is nothing beating in my chest
And what have I got to live for
When this world starts turning
It's burning me up
I'm alright
~Bebo Norman
This is so much how I've been feeling lately. I'm tiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiired; exhausted physically, mentally and spiritually, fighting the good fight in slow motion, making each step of faith with effort. I want to have energy and excitement again. I will wait. It will come. I need to be faithful and believe that God will give me strength to do what he calls me to do. If I am willing, he works, even when I'm empty. I don't want to lose any opportunities to encourage others. Father, fill me with you.
R<3
Heh, I'm feeling pretty exhausted psychologically, myself. I'm not really sure because for the last week or two (wo, it's really almost two weeks now?!), I've been ignoring the feelings inside because I just can't function while trying to deal with it all. And I think it's finally starting to crash down on my body (I've been feeling a little sick once in a while--which both Mommy and I think is probably because of worrying ^_^). But, thankfully, I think I'm trusting God (well, I'm not really sure about the inside, but I know on the surface of the inside, I am). He's just made so many things NOT happen that COULD'VE happened that, whenever I remember, I'm just absolutely awestruck.
ReplyDeleteI think my mind is pretty much blown. I'm just using the very surface because, underneath, everything is too confused to function. I'll have to figure it all out once I get home. ^_^
...wow. I didn't mean that to turn into a gigantic explanation. Oh well. Now, hopefully, you might understand a little better. I'm not even sure *I* understand.
I'll be praying for you. I hope you feel better. Thank you for praying for me (and my family) I (and we ^_^) really, really appreciate it.
That picture turned out really cute, thanks! Nice to read the lyrics of the song too. Hope that your energy returns soon. I miss having a cousin to share a room with :( I had so much fun with you!
ReplyDeleteI've been there. I've been there many times. Hang in there girlie. God will pull you through. He's got you in the palm of his hand and he'll never let you go! Give yourself an extra big hug from me until I see you again.... <3
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