I Found It

i've found the one who has perspective

only He doesn't sell it -

He spills it freely

and what's more

He created it -

some just for me

shamed and grateful tears

i curl myself small

both because i do matter

and because i don't

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I've been having quite the time with school over here, but hey guess what? God's grace is steadiness amidst my wobbling. (I just need to keep repeating that to myself.)

"What is my barrenness? It is the platform for His fruit-creating power.

What is my desolation? It is the black setting for the sapphire of His everlasting love."

"Come with the blind eye of darkened understanding: come with the limping foot of wasted energy: come with the maimed hand of weak faith, the fever of an angry temper or the ague of shivering despondency; come just as you are, for He who is God can certainly restore you."

-Spurgeon

How amazing is that last quote?! I read it late one night, exhausted and stressed and as I read, I felt my body release tension and my soul lift lighter. Thank you, God, for taking me just as I am, drama, unbelief, pride and all.

R<3

Listening to Foster The People - Pumped Up Kicks