Friday, March 4, 2011

Tell Me You're The Cure

Right now, I feel stuck standing on a tightrope between what I'm doing and what I want to do. I'm stuck there because I can feel myself wanting to be writing my testimony or making homemade pretzels and I'm sitting here at the kitchen table struggling over math. And when I say struggling, I mean, agonizing and talking myself out of it and then back into it several times an hour. By all accounts, it seems to be going nowhere. So, here I am. Not doing the things I want to be doing, but not really getting done the things that need to be done, even though I'm trying.

Some help, anyone? I think I just want to give up. I'm doing the responsible thing, but this is no fun. My life is being eaten up by stuff that makes me feel stupid. This is no way to live! Still, I remind myself that God created math and he has some greater purpose for my life and personality in having me go through this. I will make it through. I will, I will.


Listening to Everyday Sunday - Tell Me You'll Be There


  1. Living is somtetimes rotten, and learning is often really, really annoying, but I know you can do it. You've come this far, don't give up now.

    I'll be praying for you, dear.

  2. I feel your pain, with the schoolwork (especially math). It's so hard being in a transition phase, between things you need to finish up, and things you know you want to do someday (or even just the possibility of doing something besides what you're doing now).

    One thing that really helps me is focusing on moments well-lived. I'm writing something about that, that might help a tiny bit.

  3. set a goal, reward yourself for making progress...sometimes you have to suck it up and get it done so you can do the fun things...ugh...that sounds so much like my parents...